LonelyHeartButMoreLonelyWhenAlwaysSaySorry

To stay alone ~it's never been easy ! When the night fall on us  ! Almost kill us i know that feeling  ! Why i can't just like  other people do-Find somebody to love! But deep inside of me-- i  just know, if i make a wrong decision at the first place ? it's just another "tears & broken heartache"  ! True is we all knew from the beginning ! we beat down by " loness !  It's already so hard to find a stranger whom can have "Chemical connection" ! After all it's from two totally different family ! then comes "connection" --that kind of "connection" ---it's just two peoples just can understand before each other begin to speak & being understanding, that's how tests in life will attract relationship ! No matter what couldn't separate to each other till death---that's the vow we make at wedding ! But whom really love you? patient, being considerable? and truly accept--that "noddy's perfect " ! Don't try to push each other down (cause it's happened every day in our eyes around us)---what's the worth?  Wars happened all the time...for what?? To prove who's the "boss" in this family? That's true! When things that we could image in the relationship? ( i want to say--actually we all knew from the first place, first met") Who we tried to fool?? Then " divorce" comes next --Cause it just too painful !! But was that crossing your mind--that's that pain you gonna pay someday just because we could stay-peace mind and try to find the " right one" for us ! People haven't got that kind of pain and at meanwhile, just make us so want to run away from that messes  in relationship ? could you image how hard to get off it! hatred for what?? for we  waisted so much time on wrong choice & it's time for us to pay someday , only soon or later ! Soul mate that's all we want in life ! That's make our life without regret" ! peaceful &joyful ! So beautiful , that's worth for us to wait& search ! Not waist another 10 years to separate each other & we all know how ugly that will be !! Love : it all about " Give & Take" so two strangers could build " trust " & make relationship stronger each day !!Who's gonna take that " first step" since everyone tired by stupid "vain" ! But the true is --Lonely heart better then when that relationship--one party's always say sorry"  for sure ! If you ever been there before! God bless lonely heart & lead to happy ever after !!

Listen To Your Body

My assistant , she's 35and just getting preeiter then she's 20 years old !When did your last time to listen to your body ? When was the last time that you could listen to your body react to "Sugar" ?   To " protein" ? To " starch" ? To " Victamin" ? What was that reaction  of your body , "Mixed Up" of sugar with starch ? or  portain with sugar ? or how many sugar you got more then Victamin from fruit ? When was last time you could  "Listen" to your body's reactions ? Or Do you ever listen to your body ? Inside beauty is much important as out side looking, Acturely...that's related, cause only you're in peace mind that only you could listen to your body ! Looking of you ....only shows that how much you respect your body, which work for you so many years !! True is everyone could be more younger and younger...if you really "Listen to your body" and find the way out---ooops...true is "The way " found you !!

Near-Death Experience--While i was a child

The first time about Near-Death Experience while i was about 12 years--16 years old. That house just so weired, every night i go in bed about 8:00pm since i have to wake up at 2:00 am early morning to help my parents ,they work at fish market, and come back home wake other sisters and brother up get ready to school about 6:00am--6:30am and take them eat out for breakfast. Each time i lay down in bed for about 3-4 hours deep sleep, my soul separate from my body and staring my own body which still in bed. I fly away to saw the streets and leave my body in bed. There's a time i saw a guy of my neighbour--a young guy kill his dog in Sugar Cane of farmland, i fly back into my body right away and awake, was that dream? well i didn't think it since i have to get up early, about 6:00 am i go home from fish market, lots neighbours surround that guy's house and discuss why he kill his dog, gosh i can't help shaking..it was true. Another detachment from body i saw a poor guy which still my neighbour, he's so hurt from love and turn to be crazy, always yelling every single day and night, just made some none meaning words. I saw he chop somebody, just be too scaring to watch that closer, and i fly back again . Nothing happened, well i thought it must be my dream since i stress myself too much. But it happened after one weeks at afternoon. i check about Near-Death-Experience from WIKIPEDIA these days, lots people have same experience, just i didn't see a light to guild me, just detachment from body, and there's a female ghost in my house that time, she didn't take over my body while i was in detachment.....but it's all stop after we move from that house.

Near-Death Experience

There's  time i was traveling a lot  for job needed, air plant should be most secure transport to travel, but it always sudden drop down experiences i had, one time a beautiful summer to Japan while people having lunch on plant, a sudden wind cut strike,  that sudden and quick drop down of plant, everyone was screaming loud, how weird i could heard them but not affect by them just like another background sound,  i was in totally peace mind just my whole life and some pictures i couldn't recognise just like films blip by my third eyes, cause i could still knowing every thing's going with my own past and some i could know showed at same time, finally that film ran out to the end , i saw my mom crying : i want my child back....That totally took 15 seconds from announcement of captain. Well...that's weird experience cant defind. Of course i trevel much less after, not because to face death that close, because i want to serch answers about that.

I was taking over from ghost

Theres one time just make me have to recognise that i should respect and fear all the power we couldn/t see,doesn't mean they/re not there. That night i was drinking with bunch friends after early morning about 3:am i ride my motorbike home, theres time missing cause when i wake up with my sense back, i was on a heel of mountain with  fully dark,my  front wheel was half out of the edge of mountain,that mountain fulled with graves. When i come back home i still couldn't understand that missed time,why and how i was there,that/s not familiar place, i just follow the downhill road to downtown that i could recognise how to get home.

ghost i met in Bangkok

Associates told me that that hotel i should watch out better no sleep just spent night at Bar drink or dance whole night ,rest next night, one of my associate drunk and thought he/s lucky met a sweet girl in elevator,guys whispering woo ow...what a hot girl....after he open his room  door just see that girl sitting on his bed with cold smile.....About me?  I just lay down in bed and felt fruit flying and throw to me,but stop after i open my eyes....heard ghosts from world war two and havn/t  free.

Lithium - Evanescence